I have a feeling I'm going to be posting a lot more often now that I'm up in a northern community all by myself. Some of you are cheering... some may be sighing. Lol> Deal with it. *crosses arms authoratatively*
Vikka! I did go! And it was amazing! I'll have to take pictures of the run part of the trail. Absolutely beautiful.
Snave87! I'm not too lonely. Mostly at night. and the internets keeps me company. :) Absense does make the heart grow fonder. Our one afternoon together on the 18th is going to be such a tease. I have no idea when our schedules will align again after that until September lol. I'll probably get some pretty great sex out of this (if I ever don't have my period when I see him..... :P)
Elle! Yay, you re added me :) Hoorah.
Alright. I did the first run of the C25k program! In Flin Flon! Immediately following the 5 minute warm up i had to jog up an incline against a pretty brutal wind. But if I can finish this program in Flin Flon, running in Winnipeg will be NO problem!
The first 1.8 km (the 25 minutes run/walk combo) was great. a little hilly and windy, and it was on a shale path (black gravel) so a little unstable. Boy can i ever feel my abs right now. Then I ended up at these stairs. .... 40 stairs later I was on top of a boulder thinking "hey! I'm exactly half way around the lake path! This will be an easy walk home". Boy was I ever WRONG. You see the next part of the "path" which actually becomes road again... is 1.5 km of PURE HILLS!!!! Part of the time you're going up and down stairs on top of boulders (apparently the remnants of an ancient volcano that errupted sometime in the mesosoic era or something like that, I didn't really read very carefully). Any way, I took the "scenic loop" by accident because it looked like the most direct path.... it was not. So 25 minutes of couch to 5k, followed by 1 hour of hill walking. I logged it on Active Trainer, but there wasn't any way to account for the hills or wind. According to the site I burned 601 calories. Sooooo I'm going to stick with that number? Because I have no way to prove otherwise.
In other news, it's time for some tmi. My period has not made me a happy camper today. Today ended up being one of those days where you run to the bathroom with the shits all day for no reason. Also CRAMPS>>>> MOTHER FUCKING CRAMPS. I broke out the moon cycle tea because the midol has done nothing for me. I'm going to drink and go to sleep and hope that the st. john's wort in it will help me rest easy without any pain. Funny enough, my cramps and shits stopped long enough for me to complete the cycle around the lake in the middle of the town. At some point I should post the link to the "walking path" map. There are also cross country ski trails here!! That could be exciting!! I wish I had my bike, the hills would be a killer workout and it would be so easy/fast to get everywhere! Anyway, the moment I got home from the little walk.... shit...literally. gah. Now there are funny sounds coming from there. gurgles and clicks and all kinds of weird ones. Like movie sound effect noises ... i'm debating calling in for a sub. I have felt like i was getting a cold the last couple of days. it's totally possible i got a flu instead... but i don't want to seem like a pussy, and i'm not sure if i'd get docked pay. i know i have a certain number of sick days next year but i'm not sure if i get any for this one month term ... and i want my $277 per day damn it.
Ew i just chugged the tea and it tasted like bong water (based on its smell), and a hint of mint. EW.
Ok. Night time for me. I told myself I was going to bed early and now i'm at the normal time i go to bed. Ugh. Early bed time tomorrow night i promise (if i'm done planning for the next day).
G'night. No pics tonight, too tired.
~Nessa
Monday, May 30, 2011
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Monday number 1
Hi ladies :)
Rio: No polar bears here... but Flin Flon is definitely in the Churchill riding... kinda weird lol.
Elle: Somehow in the move over here I lost your blog!! Unless you're not blogging anymore :( I would love to start a couch to 5k with you. I have one of the programs on my ipod ready to go. I was going to run today but it's A) cold. B) I'm lazy and drinking wine. C) It wouldn't be fair for me to start without telling anyone. So I'm going to start tomorrow. SOMEONE HOLD ME TO THIS!!!
Snave87: So nice to hear from you deary! I hear ya on the busy!! To think I considered starting a teacher blog...... oi vey
ChildofApathy: I'm glad you're taking your studies seriously... I did not and my gpa suffered for it. Funny story about the town name. It is the only town in Canada named after a science fiction character! Who knew right?
Tomorrow will be my first Monday. Am I ready? Not really. I don't really know what I'm doing with any of my kids. So far today I've
1)slept in
2) ate some foods
3) had some ice cream
4) did the dishes (in the dishwasher) and cleaned the counters where I'm staying. They were a bit scary lol
5) NOTHING gah
I've had one meal and a small bit of ice cream. Now I'm drinking wine ...instead of having dinner. Hoping inspiration will come to me. I read through a bunch of educational resources.... but my mind is so blank. I know it would be easier if I weren't on the computer... but I'm also incredibly lonely. The musical is over so I'll be able to hang out with Kat when she and I are both not working, but I miss Greg. I didn't think I would, but on Saturday morning after a bit of making out I started crying. His bus left yesterday morning at 9:15 and I just didn't want him to go. The next time I will see him will be June 18 for a friend's wedding. He's off on his farm mentorship program now. :( There's a number I can call him at but it's not where he's staying. It's his mentors home number. *sigh* I just want him to be here when I go to sleep. To tell me to get off the computer. To have someone to make supper for. Someone to do the crossword puzzle with..... .. .. ... . . . . I know I'll be fine. I'm just being whiney. I need to man up, grow some balls and get to know the people around here.
My eating is settling down. I think it was just all the extra energy required to teach... which is good because that means my metabolism should be a bit faster now :) It's always GO GO GO in the music room.
Next weekend (not next but the one after I think... the 11th?) is the staff golf tournament. Someone asked me if I wanted to sign up and mentioned it would be a great way for me to meet people... and i said i don't really golf. They said that only 1 or 2 people will actually golf... everyone else just drinks. So I guess I need to get some sun screen and a nice top so I can go golfing!! Woo hoo. I've already blown most of my first paycheque on rent back in the city, a top and some pants (quality shit though) and groceries/eating out every other day for dinner. ... from now on if I eat out for supper it's SALAD ONLY. So a new top purchase will have to wait. Next cheque will be nice a juicy! More than double the first (the first only had 4 work days on it) There are quite a few clothing articles I'd really like to get from Winnipeg but that will just have to wait. Next weekend I think I might go to The Pas on Saturday. It's only a 2 hour drive, and I'd like to see what's in town there.
Alright, June is just around the corner. so I think I'm going to aim for June to be a deep fried/junk food fee month. And I'm going to count tomorrow and Tuesday as June to help that situation. Also, as mentioned above. I'm going to try the couch to 5k starting tomorrow...... I am going to have to scope out some flat land to jog/run on or I'll simply keel over. I've already been having trouble breathing all the way in (possibly stress) for the last 3 weeks, so running up a hill will probably prove very difficult.
Anyway, enough of my babble. :)
XOXO
~Nessa
Oh. I'd also like to fit in a bit of yoga (perhaps 20 minutes) into my morning? or lunch hour? Any suggestions?
Rio: No polar bears here... but Flin Flon is definitely in the Churchill riding... kinda weird lol.
Elle: Somehow in the move over here I lost your blog!! Unless you're not blogging anymore :( I would love to start a couch to 5k with you. I have one of the programs on my ipod ready to go. I was going to run today but it's A) cold. B) I'm lazy and drinking wine. C) It wouldn't be fair for me to start without telling anyone. So I'm going to start tomorrow. SOMEONE HOLD ME TO THIS!!!
Snave87: So nice to hear from you deary! I hear ya on the busy!! To think I considered starting a teacher blog...... oi vey
ChildofApathy: I'm glad you're taking your studies seriously... I did not and my gpa suffered for it. Funny story about the town name. It is the only town in Canada named after a science fiction character! Who knew right?
Tomorrow will be my first Monday. Am I ready? Not really. I don't really know what I'm doing with any of my kids. So far today I've
1)slept in
2) ate some foods
3) had some ice cream
4) did the dishes (in the dishwasher) and cleaned the counters where I'm staying. They were a bit scary lol
5) NOTHING gah
I've had one meal and a small bit of ice cream. Now I'm drinking wine ...instead of having dinner. Hoping inspiration will come to me. I read through a bunch of educational resources.... but my mind is so blank. I know it would be easier if I weren't on the computer... but I'm also incredibly lonely. The musical is over so I'll be able to hang out with Kat when she and I are both not working, but I miss Greg. I didn't think I would, but on Saturday morning after a bit of making out I started crying. His bus left yesterday morning at 9:15 and I just didn't want him to go. The next time I will see him will be June 18 for a friend's wedding. He's off on his farm mentorship program now. :( There's a number I can call him at but it's not where he's staying. It's his mentors home number. *sigh* I just want him to be here when I go to sleep. To tell me to get off the computer. To have someone to make supper for. Someone to do the crossword puzzle with..... .. .. ... . . . . I know I'll be fine. I'm just being whiney. I need to man up, grow some balls and get to know the people around here.
My eating is settling down. I think it was just all the extra energy required to teach... which is good because that means my metabolism should be a bit faster now :) It's always GO GO GO in the music room.
Next weekend (not next but the one after I think... the 11th?) is the staff golf tournament. Someone asked me if I wanted to sign up and mentioned it would be a great way for me to meet people... and i said i don't really golf. They said that only 1 or 2 people will actually golf... everyone else just drinks. So I guess I need to get some sun screen and a nice top so I can go golfing!! Woo hoo. I've already blown most of my first paycheque on rent back in the city, a top and some pants (quality shit though) and groceries/eating out every other day for dinner. ... from now on if I eat out for supper it's SALAD ONLY. So a new top purchase will have to wait. Next cheque will be nice a juicy! More than double the first (the first only had 4 work days on it) There are quite a few clothing articles I'd really like to get from Winnipeg but that will just have to wait. Next weekend I think I might go to The Pas on Saturday. It's only a 2 hour drive, and I'd like to see what's in town there.
Alright, June is just around the corner. so I think I'm going to aim for June to be a deep fried/junk food fee month. And I'm going to count tomorrow and Tuesday as June to help that situation. Also, as mentioned above. I'm going to try the couch to 5k starting tomorrow...... I am going to have to scope out some flat land to jog/run on or I'll simply keel over. I've already been having trouble breathing all the way in (possibly stress) for the last 3 weeks, so running up a hill will probably prove very difficult.
Anyway, enough of my babble. :)
XOXO
~Nessa
Oh. I'd also like to fit in a bit of yoga (perhaps 20 minutes) into my morning? or lunch hour? Any suggestions?
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
I'm bleeding!!! (you hear that... bears!)
A normal period... could it be??? It started yesterday but it's a nice normal looking flow.... no strangeness down there. Sooooo what can I assume from this? My geographical location (latitudinally specific) changes my cycle?
Fingers crossed that this ends in a week!!! I would be sooooooooooooo excited, like crapping my pants excited.
I'm soooooooooooooo tired... and I've been eating like a cow... but I haven't gained any weight. I think it's because i've been running up and down band rooms stairs all day for half a day every day, and then dancing with my kids. yeah, one of my music classrooms is a band room also. With those nice carpeted stairs! and the band kids move all of their chairs when they're done so the little kids I teach can have the space to move around! It's awesome. At my other (read: ghetto) school, there is a classroom. There is barely enough space to make a circle and a whole bunch of wasted space. And the kids are a strange bunch. I literally spent a whole class waiting for the 6th graders to stfu!!!! After a bajillion warnings, it was like every time i started to talk... they thought it was a great time to open their mouths.... as if I'm not going to hear them? Like they're hiding behind my voice. 6th grade is definitely a strange year.
Greg is coming into Flin Flon tomorrow!!! His bus arrives at 7am, so I'll go pick him up, drop him at our hotel (ooooooooooooOOooo ;) oh wait I have my period F**K) and then go to school. My afternoon is pretty slack. There's a talent show at super awesome school so i won't have to teach at all. After the talent show there is a nature walk. Hopefully Greg will be there for that. It would be nice to walk in the sun with the staff and students and Greg. :) I don't think it would be out of line?? But part of me doesn't care if it is. It's not like the kids won't see us around town together. I literally ran into a half dozen of my kids walking from one end of main street to the subway (I'm still crashing at a friend's place... and her fridge is like stuffed to the brim packed, so i don't have any supper food). I really shouldn't be eating supper... I A) cannot afford it until tomorrow when my paycheque is deposited and B) need to cut down on the amount of food I'm eating. *FEEL SATIATED THEN STOP* Do NOT pass that point and stuff yourself. Why can't I just do that?
Anyway. I'm going to pack oatmeal for lunches over the weekend while I prep my music room(s) and draft my African Drum unit. I'm so fuckingtiredijustwanttosleepandwakeupjuly1...aka the day i don't have to teach any more for this school year. I need to get some MAJOR planning done this summer so I don't have to stay after school/go in at 7:30 like I have been/go in on Saturday and Sunday.
So with that, I'm going to sleep.
No pictures tonight... not that it matters. Like 2 or 3 people read my blog anyway :P So to those special few... I apologize. I'll make up for it later. (but probably not, because I'm a big empty space full of broken promises) wow that sounded really negative but it wasn't meant to be. :)
Ni-Night.
XOXO ~Nessa
9 hours until I see my Greggy-poo. :)
Fingers crossed that this ends in a week!!! I would be sooooooooooooo excited, like crapping my pants excited.
I'm soooooooooooooo tired... and I've been eating like a cow... but I haven't gained any weight. I think it's because i've been running up and down band rooms stairs all day for half a day every day, and then dancing with my kids. yeah, one of my music classrooms is a band room also. With those nice carpeted stairs! and the band kids move all of their chairs when they're done so the little kids I teach can have the space to move around! It's awesome. At my other (read: ghetto) school, there is a classroom. There is barely enough space to make a circle and a whole bunch of wasted space. And the kids are a strange bunch. I literally spent a whole class waiting for the 6th graders to stfu!!!! After a bajillion warnings, it was like every time i started to talk... they thought it was a great time to open their mouths.... as if I'm not going to hear them? Like they're hiding behind my voice. 6th grade is definitely a strange year.
Greg is coming into Flin Flon tomorrow!!! His bus arrives at 7am, so I'll go pick him up, drop him at our hotel (ooooooooooooOOooo ;) oh wait I have my period F**K) and then go to school. My afternoon is pretty slack. There's a talent show at super awesome school so i won't have to teach at all. After the talent show there is a nature walk. Hopefully Greg will be there for that. It would be nice to walk in the sun with the staff and students and Greg. :) I don't think it would be out of line?? But part of me doesn't care if it is. It's not like the kids won't see us around town together. I literally ran into a half dozen of my kids walking from one end of main street to the subway (I'm still crashing at a friend's place... and her fridge is like stuffed to the brim packed, so i don't have any supper food). I really shouldn't be eating supper... I A) cannot afford it until tomorrow when my paycheque is deposited and B) need to cut down on the amount of food I'm eating. *FEEL SATIATED THEN STOP* Do NOT pass that point and stuff yourself. Why can't I just do that?
Anyway. I'm going to pack oatmeal for lunches over the weekend while I prep my music room(s) and draft my African Drum unit. I'm so fuckingtiredijustwanttosleepandwakeupjuly1...aka the day i don't have to teach any more for this school year. I need to get some MAJOR planning done this summer so I don't have to stay after school/go in at 7:30 like I have been/go in on Saturday and Sunday.
So with that, I'm going to sleep.
No pictures tonight... not that it matters. Like 2 or 3 people read my blog anyway :P So to those special few... I apologize. I'll make up for it later. (but probably not, because I'm a big empty space full of broken promises) wow that sounded really negative but it wasn't meant to be. :)
Ni-Night.
XOXO ~Nessa
9 hours until I see my Greggy-poo. :)
Monday, May 23, 2011
Running? What is that??
Ok. So I get to Flin Flon and what is the first thing I notice??? HILLS EVERYWHERE!! Like way too steep for me to try to start running on... but not too steep that walking them won't be a huge workout. And let me tell you. Everything here is built on a giant boulder, or so it seems. The house I might be renting is a good example. You can walk into the "basement" from the ground level. Then the living space is all 10 feet above that. I should take some pictures. Well if we do end up renting it, otherwise I'm just creepy. I WILL take a picture of my classroom doors with my name on them.... spelled incorrectly lawl. I don't even know how they would have done that? The only places they've seen my name are emails and my resume. And I'm fairly certain I didn't spell my last name incorrectly there....Maybe I did. who knows. Anyway, I'm going to take a picture on my phone tomorrow and then ask them to change it. :)
Eating better (read less) is once again, going to be so much easier. Also, I'm teaching at two schools... if nobody sees me eat they'll just assume I ate on the way/at the other school. HAHAHAH. I bought myself some packaged foods, something I never do, mostly because it's cheaper to buy larger quantities then portion it out. But I don't want the hassle of eating more than one serving. I bought (for lunches):
Reduced sugar instant oatmeal in brown sugar/cinnamon flavour (120/package - ok this is for breakfast)
Reduced fat Baby-bel (50 each)
Sugar free rice pudding cups (70 each)
Sugar free apple sauce with added calcium "for bone health" (50/cup)
All bran bars (130/pouch (2 bars per pouch))
Bag of oranges (70 each)
Crispy Minis drizzled in chocolate (90 per individual package)
Black Chai tea (0!)
Cinnamon/orange blossom tea (0!)
Most days will be 1 oatmeal for breakfast and a cup of tea (120), a snack at recess (between 50-90), light lunch food like an all bran bar or 2 babybel with tea (130 or 100), and then a snack at afternoon recess, probably an orange? (70), for a total of (on a high day) 410 before dinner. This will allow me to eat a "normal" dinner (when have Greg and I ever eaten normal food?) with Greg and putting me back into my oh so happy 500-800 calorie range bracket! Even if we have dessert or ice cream after. I'll still be safe!!! Of course weekends will cause a disturbance in my plan... I just hate being home with Greg all day. He always expects me to eat when he does, and if I sleep in, he complains that my eating schedule is off. Though this doesn't really change anything, I don't let his annoyance force me to eat when I'm not hungry.
It's weird living so far away from him. I certainly don't feel it yet, but I'm sure I will when my phone bill comes.... long distance cellular everytime I answer a call from our house number..... eep!
Anyway, I'm off for now.
You do not want to see what pops up when you google skinny teacher.... well sometimes i do but not when i'm looking for nice pictures for my blog. lol.
Eating better (read less) is once again, going to be so much easier. Also, I'm teaching at two schools... if nobody sees me eat they'll just assume I ate on the way/at the other school. HAHAHAH. I bought myself some packaged foods, something I never do, mostly because it's cheaper to buy larger quantities then portion it out. But I don't want the hassle of eating more than one serving. I bought (for lunches):
Reduced sugar instant oatmeal in brown sugar/cinnamon flavour (120/package - ok this is for breakfast)
Reduced fat Baby-bel (50 each)
Sugar free rice pudding cups (70 each)
Sugar free apple sauce with added calcium "for bone health" (50/cup)
All bran bars (130/pouch (2 bars per pouch))
Bag of oranges (70 each)
Crispy Minis drizzled in chocolate (90 per individual package)
Black Chai tea (0!)
Cinnamon/orange blossom tea (0!)
Most days will be 1 oatmeal for breakfast and a cup of tea (120), a snack at recess (between 50-90), light lunch food like an all bran bar or 2 babybel with tea (130 or 100), and then a snack at afternoon recess, probably an orange? (70), for a total of (on a high day) 410 before dinner. This will allow me to eat a "normal" dinner (when have Greg and I ever eaten normal food?) with Greg and putting me back into my oh so happy 500-800 calorie range bracket! Even if we have dessert or ice cream after. I'll still be safe!!! Of course weekends will cause a disturbance in my plan... I just hate being home with Greg all day. He always expects me to eat when he does, and if I sleep in, he complains that my eating schedule is off. Though this doesn't really change anything, I don't let his annoyance force me to eat when I'm not hungry.
It's weird living so far away from him. I certainly don't feel it yet, but I'm sure I will when my phone bill comes.... long distance cellular everytime I answer a call from our house number..... eep!
Anyway, I'm off for now.
You do not want to see what pops up when you google skinny teacher.... well sometimes i do but not when i'm looking for nice pictures for my blog. lol.
Friday, May 20, 2011
I am leaving oh god.
Comment responses!
Elle: You're so sweet. I try to go for beautiful pictures, but sometimes it just ends up being whatever suits my mood/the weather/what I had for lunch/whatever my brain is spinning full of at the moment.
Rio: We are so in this together. I may not be in the same city as you anymore (as of Sunday) but we should totally be home girls! (I felt really geeky saying that)
Mich: .... the laundry was deceivingly smaller looking due to the mirrors. It was two laundry baskets full... stacked atop one another, then cascading onto the floor. Almost like a hot laundry sundae. Luckily I don't really smell all that bad or I wouldn't have anyone wanting to come over. :P
Life and stuff:
Sunday I take my 9/10 hour drive north to the community I'll be teaching in starting on Tuesday..... Hyperventilating here!!!! Oh shit. Like I actually have to teach. And I'll actually have to do report cards. Shit fuck lol. I better not talk like that in my classroom....
Ok, dilemma here. I'll be there for a while without Greg... 2 months to be exact, because he's going on his farm internship thing. ... Should I bring my scale with me? I'll be living at a friends place until I get an apartment/house for Greg and I. I don't want it to seem obvious by carrying the scale with me to the bathroom every morning. Sometimes when I don't have a scale I'm more careful than normal... Like when I went to Fargo for the weekend. After very little food and driving for 6 hours I came out a winner... then ate a bunch of bread when I got home.
Grad dinner last night was awesome! My program leader, who is also my associate dean said "You're looking so slim and trim. You look great!" and my other fellow early years person also commented on it. I guess their brains are stuck on seeing me at 256 because I haven't really lost anything for quite some time now. It was still nice to hear though, and I will definitely take a compliment.
The bones in my wrist are beginning to have a definite point on the outer edges! Hoorah! By the end of summer, I'd like to be able to see some of the tendons in my feet. :)
Skinny feet here I come (not just skinny feet, but you know what I mean)
Elle: You're so sweet. I try to go for beautiful pictures, but sometimes it just ends up being whatever suits my mood/the weather/what I had for lunch/whatever my brain is spinning full of at the moment.
Rio: We are so in this together. I may not be in the same city as you anymore (as of Sunday) but we should totally be home girls! (I felt really geeky saying that)
Mich: .... the laundry was deceivingly smaller looking due to the mirrors. It was two laundry baskets full... stacked atop one another, then cascading onto the floor. Almost like a hot laundry sundae. Luckily I don't really smell all that bad or I wouldn't have anyone wanting to come over. :P
Life and stuff:
Sunday I take my 9/10 hour drive north to the community I'll be teaching in starting on Tuesday..... Hyperventilating here!!!! Oh shit. Like I actually have to teach. And I'll actually have to do report cards. Shit fuck lol. I better not talk like that in my classroom....
Ok, dilemma here. I'll be there for a while without Greg... 2 months to be exact, because he's going on his farm internship thing. ... Should I bring my scale with me? I'll be living at a friends place until I get an apartment/house for Greg and I. I don't want it to seem obvious by carrying the scale with me to the bathroom every morning. Sometimes when I don't have a scale I'm more careful than normal... Like when I went to Fargo for the weekend. After very little food and driving for 6 hours I came out a winner... then ate a bunch of bread when I got home.
Grad dinner last night was awesome! My program leader, who is also my associate dean said "You're looking so slim and trim. You look great!" and my other fellow early years person also commented on it. I guess their brains are stuck on seeing me at 256 because I haven't really lost anything for quite some time now. It was still nice to hear though, and I will definitely take a compliment.
The bones in my wrist are beginning to have a definite point on the outer edges! Hoorah! By the end of summer, I'd like to be able to see some of the tendons in my feet. :)
Skinny feet here I come (not just skinny feet, but you know what I mean)
And I WILL be doing couch to 5k again, but this time hopefully finishing it :)
Ni-night ladies <3
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Hey Blog
Warning: this is a long one.
Well hello there blog... it's been a while. Well not as long as it seems. Somehow in the shitty blogger shuffle my last post disappeared. I've been so busy... mostly doing nothing but planning for my upcoming job.... which they emailed me and asked if I could start like NOW. Actually they asked if I could start on the 16th... but I said no, I'd start the week after that. So this week has been stupid busy trying to get everything ready for my big move. I'm going up without Greg. I'm going to be there without him for a month. Crashing at a girlfriends place until I can find a suitable housing arrangement. And he was offered this farm mentor-ship program which would occupy him for June and July, and possibly August if he takes it. So I'll have a summer without him. I'm a little sad, but he's promised me he'd write me letters.
THIS IS A GOOD THING --> because I've been fucking bouncing back and forth in the same 3 stupid pounds. I need to start writing down what I eat then reduce it again. I need to get this done proper like. I'd also like to give the couch to 5k another try. 2nd times a charm? Actually with me it takes 3 or 4 tries to succeed at anything new. *sigh* I need some motivation. My friend Vikki did it. And she fucking rocked it. She just did her jog 10/walk 1. I'm so proud of her.
We (bf and I) went and looked at new bikes for me because my current bike is a 5 speed from the 70's and it's seriously lacking oh I dunno, a 1st gear, and a frame that actually fits me. Oh and the road tires, Winnipeg's roads are so bad (especially the right side, conveniently where the bike lane is located) that I'm at risk of blowing a tire everytime I travel. But Greg being the cheap fucker he is (I love him I swear, but he's so god damn cheap it hurts) said "why don't we just go to the bike dump and get a free one there". Yeah, will my free bike have an extremely light aluminum frame? NO Will it have the "trigger" kind of gear shifter I like... NO. Will it's brakes work better than mine do right now (they don't very well lol) NO. Gah. I'm not so broke that I couldn't afford a bike. Plus, I'd like to have something to do while I'm in Flin Flon (read, another way to exercise) and I'm not bringing my stupid shitty bike with me there. Really. I know that $400 is expensive, but it was the second cheapest of the kind I want that they have. And it's a good name brand with quality parts that won't need replacing right away. I just want to buy it anyway when he's not looking. So instead I went shopping today.... more on that later.
So the dresses I ordered from Etsy do not fit me because I'm a lazy ass. I'm graduating at a size 14. FUck My Life. Here are my current options for my grad dinner on Thursday eve. (please don't mind the huge laundry pile behind me or the bajillion scarves piled in my apartment. ... or my fattness)
Well hello there blog... it's been a while. Well not as long as it seems. Somehow in the shitty blogger shuffle my last post disappeared. I've been so busy... mostly doing nothing but planning for my upcoming job.... which they emailed me and asked if I could start like NOW. Actually they asked if I could start on the 16th... but I said no, I'd start the week after that. So this week has been stupid busy trying to get everything ready for my big move. I'm going up without Greg. I'm going to be there without him for a month. Crashing at a girlfriends place until I can find a suitable housing arrangement. And he was offered this farm mentor-ship program which would occupy him for June and July, and possibly August if he takes it. So I'll have a summer without him. I'm a little sad, but he's promised me he'd write me letters.
THIS IS A GOOD THING --> because I've been fucking bouncing back and forth in the same 3 stupid pounds. I need to start writing down what I eat then reduce it again. I need to get this done proper like. I'd also like to give the couch to 5k another try. 2nd times a charm? Actually with me it takes 3 or 4 tries to succeed at anything new. *sigh* I need some motivation. My friend Vikki did it. And she fucking rocked it. She just did her jog 10/walk 1. I'm so proud of her.
We (bf and I) went and looked at new bikes for me because my current bike is a 5 speed from the 70's and it's seriously lacking oh I dunno, a 1st gear, and a frame that actually fits me. Oh and the road tires, Winnipeg's roads are so bad (especially the right side, conveniently where the bike lane is located) that I'm at risk of blowing a tire everytime I travel. But Greg being the cheap fucker he is (I love him I swear, but he's so god damn cheap it hurts) said "why don't we just go to the bike dump and get a free one there". Yeah, will my free bike have an extremely light aluminum frame? NO Will it have the "trigger" kind of gear shifter I like... NO. Will it's brakes work better than mine do right now (they don't very well lol) NO. Gah. I'm not so broke that I couldn't afford a bike. Plus, I'd like to have something to do while I'm in Flin Flon (read, another way to exercise) and I'm not bringing my stupid shitty bike with me there. Really. I know that $400 is expensive, but it was the second cheapest of the kind I want that they have. And it's a good name brand with quality parts that won't need replacing right away. I just want to buy it anyway when he's not looking. So instead I went shopping today.... more on that later.
So the dresses I ordered from Etsy do not fit me because I'm a lazy ass. I'm graduating at a size 14. FUck My Life. Here are my current options for my grad dinner on Thursday eve. (please don't mind the huge laundry pile behind me or the bajillion scarves piled in my apartment. ... or my fattness)
This purple dress was only $20. It has a bubble hem but I feel like I'm trying too hard in it. Also, sorry for the crappy phone pictures. Greg took the camera off on his adventure to the self sufficient farm he's visiting today.
This one is more summery and more me I think. But I'm fat so my perception is skewed.
Also I bought a white cardigan at a vintage shoppe this afternoon hoping I could wear it to dinner to cover the little bubble of fat I have at my armpit.... bleah
I feel like the little coral and pink flowers with the greenery really compliment my colouring. Also I could wear pearls with this outfit... and I fucking love pearls. Ok, so I guess I decided on my own then. Now I just need to find some hose to wear underneath. *sigh*
I bought that flowered dress today, and the sweater. And I bought Greg's little brother's birthday gift (a small bottle of cognac that lucky bugger). and I got Greg an antique straight razor which he's wanted since we got engaged. He thought he should also get some kind of gift if he had to buy me a ring. So I agreed... but I'm a little slow on the draw hahaha.
What else is new?
I went to a girlfriends place over the weekend. I hadn't seen her since my Mom's funeral (2006) and before that when I was in grade nine!! like 2003 I think? Anyway. There was a gang of us girls who were practically inseparable~ and we all made it to the party! And ya know what? I was the slimmest of them all. That never happened when we were young. I was always the fat friend. It doesn't help that 2 of the 4 of them have had kids. It was still kind of nice. Also, for one night I got to be the person I used to be. They didn't have to know about my depression or struggle with weight/food/exercise. I was the happy positive person they knew in elementary and middle school and jr. high. I think I'd like to be that person again.
New plan:
Go to Flin Flon. Start Couch to 5K.....
Come back for the month of July. Use the boot camp voucher I bought (good for one month of boot camp)
Look semi-acceptable by the end of July.
Keep working out when I go back to Flin Flon in August
Alright, well you've listened to me ramble on for quite some time. I think you deserve some inspiration! I've come this far in one year... in another year perhaps I will be closer to these ladies. :)
Love you lovely ladies.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
I'm still around... :P Get it. Around
Hey all. Nothing new and exciting. I'm SLOWLY .... ever so freaking slowly moving down the scale. :) Just a quickie here ;) cuz I know you all love those ;)
1) Went to the Dr. today about my 2 week periods.... he ordered some blood work tomorrow. That means fasting from this evening (10pm). I thought about lieing to Greg and telling him I needed to fast longer... but I'm paranoid that will fuck up my blood work or something.
2) I told said Greg that I wanted to do a cleanse again.. he said those are stupid. But then clarified with "I hate it when people call them cleanses" and suggest WE do a water fast instead.... Um. Yes please. I asked him how long ... he said 18 days, and I gasped. Ok. I'm sure I wouldn't need to eat during that period of time, but I can barely go half a day without trying to decide when I'm next eating, what the best way to get that into me is, and what it is going to be. I'm obsessed with thinking about eating. Seriously. I walk to my bus and I"m like. hmmm what am I going to have for lunch? Oh, that's so and so many hours away.... I could ... blah blah blah, my mind just keeps going. And when I eat junk (aka binge because that seems to be the only time I really eat the stufff... all or nothing baby) I calculate when I will eat it, how many calories I'm ingesting per episode of whatever I'm watching. It really is exhausting.
Anywho. I hope that there is something wrong with my thyroid and that I can just go on some kind of medication... which may aide in losing weight at the same time. Because let me tell you. I'm walking all over the place, and I've started biking to destinations for groceries etc. and I'm not eating the 1300 calories my body would like me to have to maintain a steady weight... but I am not losing weight. I am. But BARELY. Ugh..... At least I'm out of the 190's. That was a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge motherfucking hump.
Ok. I'm out for now. I have to make dinner *sigh*. If Greg wasn't kidding about fasting, I'll let you know. Also, does anyone have any info on fasting? Like can I drink tea on a fast?
Pretties, for my pretties... that sounded like the wicked witch. :P
1) Went to the Dr. today about my 2 week periods.... he ordered some blood work tomorrow. That means fasting from this evening (10pm). I thought about lieing to Greg and telling him I needed to fast longer... but I'm paranoid that will fuck up my blood work or something.
2) I told said Greg that I wanted to do a cleanse again.. he said those are stupid. But then clarified with "I hate it when people call them cleanses" and suggest WE do a water fast instead.... Um. Yes please. I asked him how long ... he said 18 days, and I gasped. Ok. I'm sure I wouldn't need to eat during that period of time, but I can barely go half a day without trying to decide when I'm next eating, what the best way to get that into me is, and what it is going to be. I'm obsessed with thinking about eating. Seriously. I walk to my bus and I"m like. hmmm what am I going to have for lunch? Oh, that's so and so many hours away.... I could ... blah blah blah, my mind just keeps going. And when I eat junk (aka binge because that seems to be the only time I really eat the stufff... all or nothing baby) I calculate when I will eat it, how many calories I'm ingesting per episode of whatever I'm watching. It really is exhausting.
Anywho. I hope that there is something wrong with my thyroid and that I can just go on some kind of medication... which may aide in losing weight at the same time. Because let me tell you. I'm walking all over the place, and I've started biking to destinations for groceries etc. and I'm not eating the 1300 calories my body would like me to have to maintain a steady weight... but I am not losing weight. I am. But BARELY. Ugh..... At least I'm out of the 190's. That was a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge motherfucking hump.
Ok. I'm out for now. I have to make dinner *sigh*. If Greg wasn't kidding about fasting, I'll let you know. Also, does anyone have any info on fasting? Like can I drink tea on a fast?
Pretties, for my pretties... that sounded like the wicked witch. :P
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