I uploaded a new vlog. This one is nothing but pure boring!
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
TRYINGTO VLOG!
Hey ladies. Happy gorge yourself, zombie jesus, earth day weekend! I tried to upload a vlog from my little bitty laptop... butit's runingn so slow right now. and my fingernails are soooo long that i can't seem to make the keyboard function to my desires. I'll have to post laterzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. :D
Good luck this weekend with food, and family and such.
All my love. XOXO
Nessa
Good luck this weekend with food, and family and such.
All my love. XOXO
Nessa
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Fucking Hugnery
That was a typo... but I thought hugnery made more sense than hungry. :D So I left it. Right now, at this exact moment, I'm 190.6.... before bed. So def under 190 ... again.. ugh. Fourth times a charm? I've been buying a butt load (see previous reference to butt load) of veggies and fruit. I did have some "snack mix" yesterday at a quiz night but I also took a long walk which I think made up for it, and ran a block to catch the bus for my cousins. :) Alright, I'm sufficiently hungry. The spelling errors are mounting... gah.
Ok. that's a quickie. Sorry I haven't posted anything with substance. My life is boring... I bought $230 worth of fabric to make garb today. It should make enough for a 4 day excursion including an "evening" outfit. :P I'm nerdy like that.
We're getting pictures done in a studio tomorrow morning... that's if Greg shows up? I think he went to his parents house... but he was supposed to come back for night because we have a photographer (my friend) who is "updating" his portfolio and doing free studio time for 1 hour per person. This is an excellent opportunity for Greg to see what a professional photographer can do, and encourage him to fork over the cash for quality memory making at the wedding. :D Even if he doesn't agree... I'll probably still hire the guy. I'll be the bacon bringer next year anyway. :P
Ok. I'm off. Need sleep... gotta NOT have bags under my eyes tomorrow morning. :)
OXOXOXOOX
Nessa
Ok. that's a quickie. Sorry I haven't posted anything with substance. My life is boring... I bought $230 worth of fabric to make garb today. It should make enough for a 4 day excursion including an "evening" outfit. :P I'm nerdy like that.
We're getting pictures done in a studio tomorrow morning... that's if Greg shows up? I think he went to his parents house... but he was supposed to come back for night because we have a photographer (my friend) who is "updating" his portfolio and doing free studio time for 1 hour per person. This is an excellent opportunity for Greg to see what a professional photographer can do, and encourage him to fork over the cash for quality memory making at the wedding. :D Even if he doesn't agree... I'll probably still hire the guy. I'll be the bacon bringer next year anyway. :P
Ok. I'm off. Need sleep... gotta NOT have bags under my eyes tomorrow morning. :)
OXOXOXOOX
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Gah why is this so hard????
190.0 on the fucking dot this morning... why is it so hard for me to fucking stop being a ginormo-hippo-fatass??? It's like everytime I get down there (not low, but low for me) there is something I'm required to provide some kind of food for.... Next week my collaborating teacher and I have "treat day". Luckily normally I'm not there in time for any food to be left... and we won't be there for the actual day. So I'll leave my treats at the end of the previous day.... and not eat any of them. Not sure what I'm bringing yet. *sigh* My goal is to still be 190 (or less) by Thursday next week..... da;lgkjgh;ahahg Fuck .
Friday, April 8, 2011
hahah uterus
I spent all night having stern conversations with my uterus... Telling it "you'd better not start cramping now...because I HAVE to teach all day tomorrow. I cannot call in sick because it will look like I'm shying away from my responsibility". ... It seemed to work. I'm cramping slightly, but not as bad as it usually is. NOT NEARLY!
Anywho, gym tonight, or I may go sandbagging instead. That would also burn a LOT of calories.
Anywho, gym tonight, or I may go sandbagging instead. That would also burn a LOT of calories.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
193 this morning :(
I think I've figured it out...... Sometimes I just want to keep loading the calories into me... like with a fucking backhoe! And everytime I think to myself, "I could just puke those out"... As if someday I will eventually eat enough calories that I'll have no other choice than to do it. Is that weird? Don't worry, hold off on the worried comments, or the "that's how it starts" warnings, because I'll let you in on a secret. I'M TERRIFIED OF PUKING. Like if I were poisoned and I absolutely had to do it... I don't know that I could. There's like this wave of panic. Even when I'm drunk. I'd rather sit up and feel nauseated all night (time flies when you're drunk) than throw up. And I've done it too. Soooooooooooo many times. Even when I have the flu, or when I had that hooooooorrible bladder infection and I couldn't not gag after sitting in a moving vehicle for anything longer than 10 minutes. Nope, couldn't lose my lunch. Like I said, it just won't ever happen.
In other news, my hovering period has finally decided to land....Gah. Great.
In better news, I'm going to the gym in an hour. and I went two days ago, and two days before that. I'm hoping that part of 4 pounds I'm packing is that sudden weight gain that happens when you start working out (muscle mass?). At LEAST 2 of it is period weight. And I was holding another 2.3 pounds of poo.... because I hadn't had a bowel movement in a few days. Well this morning I almost cried when I got on the scale... at 195.3.... then i poo'd and now it's all goood. It's not really, but that rhymed so deal with it.
POST GYM. I ran for about 4-5 minutes in total (in 1, 1.5 or 2 minute intervals.... wait. Must have been more than 5 minutes then. Whatever). and did some weight machines and some ab work. :D I feel all buzzy from the adrenaline!! Hooorah! I had a protein shake after that, with 181 calories. I feel awful drinking it just before bed but my gym buddy, Gerard, swears by them. Fuck I'm stuck in a weight rut. I think I might buy some of those meal replacements with "extra protein" and low cals ... or perhaps I should buy some protein powder? Any suggestions? I had some hemp protein that I really enjoyed... perhaps I'll have to take a trip down to the health food store this weekend. :D I do like any excuse to go there.
Anyway, sorry so much talk. Onto some pretties :) (Extra for you because you had to wait so long for me to speak :P)
XOXO
Nessa
In other news, my hovering period has finally decided to land....Gah. Great.
In better news, I'm going to the gym in an hour. and I went two days ago, and two days before that. I'm hoping that part of 4 pounds I'm packing is that sudden weight gain that happens when you start working out (muscle mass?). At LEAST 2 of it is period weight. And I was holding another 2.3 pounds of poo.... because I hadn't had a bowel movement in a few days. Well this morning I almost cried when I got on the scale... at 195.3.... then i poo'd and now it's all goood. It's not really, but that rhymed so deal with it.
POST GYM. I ran for about 4-5 minutes in total (in 1, 1.5 or 2 minute intervals.... wait. Must have been more than 5 minutes then. Whatever). and did some weight machines and some ab work. :D I feel all buzzy from the adrenaline!! Hooorah! I had a protein shake after that, with 181 calories. I feel awful drinking it just before bed but my gym buddy, Gerard, swears by them. Fuck I'm stuck in a weight rut. I think I might buy some of those meal replacements with "extra protein" and low cals ... or perhaps I should buy some protein powder? Any suggestions? I had some hemp protein that I really enjoyed... perhaps I'll have to take a trip down to the health food store this weekend. :D I do like any excuse to go there.
Anyway, sorry so much talk. Onto some pretties :) (Extra for you because you had to wait so long for me to speak :P)
XOXO
Nessa
Jogging leads to....
Saturday, April 2, 2011
:P I suck
Ok. I can't remember how many times I've been given the versatile blogger award... but I suck at doing these things. ... I always think my "shared secrets" are lame... :P Eventually I'll get around to doing it... or I won't lawl. I suck, I know. I can think of a couple of things, but not seven. I've been making a mental list so that by the time i actually do it, you'll be reading things about me that you don't already know.
In other news. My scale is very very confused. Everytime I step on it's different... then I move it and it just has no idea what's happening. What's my solution? I drank a couple of shots of fortified wine and I'm chasing it with some Prosecco. :) Yeah. I'll drink til I don't know I'm a fatty :P I've been doing horrible with the gym. Tomorrow I need to actually write down my calories. Ugh. I don't even want to know what I'm eating...... ugh. Gross. I mean I'm not the 256 I started at... and no matter how many glasses of wine I have tonight, I will not wake up at that weight. I'm starting to have difficulty typing and spelling, that's how I know I've had enough (and then I'll have a little more just to "lock in" the buzz).
My friend called me tonight to hang out. She was going out with her camp buddies (the University runs a camp called Mini-U, where kids do sports/games all week because they're on spring break). I told her I was just gettin in from my Aunt's house and I thought I'd stay in tonight... plus I really wanted to watch Dr. Who and my hair is grody. She texted me like half an hour later... asking if she could crash here? Um. if we're not partying together, you're not sleeping here. *sigh* oh drunk friends. In other news.... ya know how I said I was going to demote my sister from MOH ???? Well I'm just going to leave her be. She's looking forward to it, and honestly, I've never stayed in one place very long, and she knows me much better than anyone I know. And drunk friend? Well, I don't think she'll be a very good bridesmaid....... she's always either sad because she's single and can't handle talking about my wedding stuff, or she's in a relationship and fucking ditching me while I'm in the room for some boy she's been dating for like an hour. FUck-ing HELL. How the fuck are you going to help me plan a bachelorette party? You're going to be too sad to help.... or fucking too busy with your latest love of your life, I'm really going to marry this one I think even though we've only been dating for like 2 days. I exaggerate, but really, after 3 months, it's impossible to love someone who's trying to get away from you. *sigh* Ok, I'm just being drunk and honest now. Fuck my life.
Ooooo. my toes are feeling pretty awesome right now! I'm considering making a box of KD that's been sitting on my shelf for like 4 months. :P I'm watching Dr. Who... I do NOT like the dr in the 2005 version.... what happened to the hotty mc hott hott from 2002 and 2003 :( I always hate it when he changes. Then I warm up to him, but I dunnow about this one. He looks a little bit like Heath Ledger. Wow. I haven't posted this long of a post for a while.... ok. I'm going to go. Tomorrow is Saturday. 2 days of weekend followed by 3 weeks of student teaching. Then I'm done for the summer. Perhaps I'll try subbing. It pays about $100 a day......... yeah, I'll do that. Gonna need a vehicle. Oi vey.
K I'm done rambling for now (and backspacing everything I type just to get the spelling not retarded)
XOXO
Nessa
In other news. My scale is very very confused. Everytime I step on it's different... then I move it and it just has no idea what's happening. What's my solution? I drank a couple of shots of fortified wine and I'm chasing it with some Prosecco. :) Yeah. I'll drink til I don't know I'm a fatty :P I've been doing horrible with the gym. Tomorrow I need to actually write down my calories. Ugh. I don't even want to know what I'm eating...... ugh. Gross. I mean I'm not the 256 I started at... and no matter how many glasses of wine I have tonight, I will not wake up at that weight. I'm starting to have difficulty typing and spelling, that's how I know I've had enough (and then I'll have a little more just to "lock in" the buzz).
My friend called me tonight to hang out. She was going out with her camp buddies (the University runs a camp called Mini-U, where kids do sports/games all week because they're on spring break). I told her I was just gettin in from my Aunt's house and I thought I'd stay in tonight... plus I really wanted to watch Dr. Who and my hair is grody. She texted me like half an hour later... asking if she could crash here? Um. if we're not partying together, you're not sleeping here. *sigh* oh drunk friends. In other news.... ya know how I said I was going to demote my sister from MOH ???? Well I'm just going to leave her be. She's looking forward to it, and honestly, I've never stayed in one place very long, and she knows me much better than anyone I know. And drunk friend? Well, I don't think she'll be a very good bridesmaid....... she's always either sad because she's single and can't handle talking about my wedding stuff, or she's in a relationship and fucking ditching me while I'm in the room for some boy she's been dating for like an hour. FUck-ing HELL. How the fuck are you going to help me plan a bachelorette party? You're going to be too sad to help.... or fucking too busy with your latest love of your life, I'm really going to marry this one I think even though we've only been dating for like 2 days. I exaggerate, but really, after 3 months, it's impossible to love someone who's trying to get away from you. *sigh* Ok, I'm just being drunk and honest now. Fuck my life.
Ooooo. my toes are feeling pretty awesome right now! I'm considering making a box of KD that's been sitting on my shelf for like 4 months. :P I'm watching Dr. Who... I do NOT like the dr in the 2005 version.... what happened to the hotty mc hott hott from 2002 and 2003 :( I always hate it when he changes. Then I warm up to him, but I dunnow about this one. He looks a little bit like Heath Ledger. Wow. I haven't posted this long of a post for a while.... ok. I'm going to go. Tomorrow is Saturday. 2 days of weekend followed by 3 weeks of student teaching. Then I'm done for the summer. Perhaps I'll try subbing. It pays about $100 a day......... yeah, I'll do that. Gonna need a vehicle. Oi vey.
K I'm done rambling for now (and backspacing everything I type just to get the spelling not retarded)
XOXO
Nessa
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