Thursday, September 22, 2011

Oh, I forgot about that!

Yesterday was Billy's birthday. I'm too broke so I couldn't buy him a gift. ... A blow job will have to suffice. :D

Last weekend I went out and met Billy's best friends :) Super fun times. I'll put up some stuff from the evening. There's a video of him and me and his bestie dancing to this wii game. The video is hilarious! After partying for what seemed like a few hours but was actually 6 or 7, we went back to his place and got some mushrooms. I'd never done them before so I was glad to be doing them with him :) It was neat :D All the lights in my house seemed to set a different mood. And when I turned off the lights to go to bed everything looked even cooler. So mellow. Very enjoyable. Not at all what I was expecting :) I was a little tired the next day... well a LOT tired lol. I napped for a couple of hours lol. Here are a couple of pics from the party:

 His best friend and I :

The girls, and Colin, who is gay :)


And the video! I'm on the far left rocking out. Colin walks in front and skanks a bit in front of us. Loreena (Billy's bestie) is in the middle, and then there's Billy on the right! He's friggin' hilarious when he's drunk. He totally just stood in front of the tv and tried to distract everyone. Gah. I really love him. :)

For his birthday yesterday we went to his Mom's friends place, who happens to be the mom of one of my students. At first I was kinda put off by one of my students answering the door, especially when I saw that another was there to hang out... but then I got over it. :) After that, we went back to his place and chatted with his mom for a couple of hours. I stayed home from school today to have a "mental health day".  Slept until 11... went for lunch with Billy at 2:30. Tonight I have choir rehearsal at 7:30... I'm going to try to seduce Billy via text message so he'll come over and have hot steamy sex with me tonight. I'm hella randy... and then I'm going to NOT binge after that. Never mind. He wants to come over and play cards and watch the hockey game... during/after which I will seduce him. Why am I so fucking horny????!! lol.

This weekend there is another party. This one for Billy's birthday. Today eating has gone well. ... I took 6 laxatives this morning and waited a half hour... and then ate a big breakfast then had the tiniest poop of my life... Then like 3 hours later I went for "lupper" with Billy. I'm going to have dinner at my apartment at 6:30... then tidy up around here. Rock out to choir and then rush home.... yum. :P

Giant salad for supper... this will work.

Wish me luck ladies. ...

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

almot made it....

Well for whatever reason I binged last night. Woke up at 189.9... yesterday morning I was 187.4

At least I went for a run yesterday. Billy came with me (he's ridiculously athletic) and I only ran for about 25 minutes (3.5ish kilometres) but he could keep running forever. Fuck my life. I really need to just lock my fridge/cupboards after 6:30..... FUCK MY LIFE. gah.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Fucking eh... Willpower is back? ... maybe?

Alrighty, here's another Vlog for y'all.... mostly because I'm lazy. Partially because I'm freaking out over my fatness and I can't sit down long enough to fucking write something down.



And here are pics of the boy. :)
This one is from a couple of summers ago (stolen from his Mother's facebook). His hand are ginormous... and quite proportional to other areas of his anatomy

And this one, also jacked from his Mom's facebook, is from last Christmas. :) Yup, he's always smiling. :)
He's so skinny... clearly I will look better next to him when I am also slim :)

Here's to new beginnings and re-acquainting ourselves (mostly MYSELF) with the idea of willpower.