Food. No thanks

[Child of Apathy], Moonlight Misstress, little rock (hello by the way <3), Snave87, Elle, and Rio I cannot tell you how much your support means to me right now. Thank you so much for understanding and just being there. That goes for everyone else who is reading also. I see the stats (i finally remembered you can do that)

So My dad phoned me last night to offer me his car instead of me needing to buy a new one. Just until July when I come back for 2 weeks. He's being super supportive, which is nice because sometimes we don't get along very well. He said "Nesser (that's actually his nick name for me <3), do yourself and me a favour and don't cry when you do it." I told him I didn't think would.

Food wise... this has been stressful but good. Barely ate Sunday (like maaybe 200cal), Monday was board game night, I had two paralyzers and one slice of pizza. Tuesday was a wine tasting, had some ryvetta crackers (but the low fat/cal knock off brand) and low fat cheese. I was the only person who didn't chug all the wine in the glasses. In fact all of my glasses (save 2 of the 12) had most of their wine in them. Today... well I ate at McDonalds. My fucking stomach is killing me. I can feel my heart pumping harder. GROSS.  I had a 20 calorie gatorade and coffee all day. And then I decided I should eat something. I was going to go to Subway but the light didn't change for 5 minutes straight. The walk sign would go to the hand... then just change back to walk. So i turned the other way and ate 820 calories in one fell swoop. Tomorrow it's back to low numbers. My stomach hurts when I stand, I guess it's not used to having food in it at the moment. When I woke up this morning I was 181.? ... so I lost some weight out of this. Thank fucking god.

In the copy room, one of the other teachers asked me if I was married, because she'd noticed a ring when I was conducting the community band... I told her that things hadn't worked out. She said "well then, you should come to Cuba with us at Christmas". I told her I would save my money. :)

I texted muscles last night. It said:
"Hey, sorry for the weekend of teasing. The next time you are down this way, I'll have to make it up to you"
Response? :
"Ha ha hey thanks i had a great weekend. Thanks for the dance! Yea I will let you know fo sho"

K, I can't believe he said fo sho. But whatevs. When he dropped me off at my car on Sunday he said "thanks for the sleepover". Bahahahahahahaha. cute. *sigh*. I really don't want to break up with Greg. I do, but I don't want to actually have the conversation. I should just not talk to him and let him come to his own conclusions. ... Or mail it in a letter... but I NEED to be the better person. I am the better person.

Pictures will happen eventually... when I'm done report cards. Fuck. I have 500 to do. ouch.

Anyway, less depressing factors. Here's a quizy thing that Kat not Jas posted (kinda makes me feel sluttier than I already feel): Items struck out are things I've done.

1. had sex
2. bought condoms

3. gotten pregnant
4. failed a class
5. kissed a boy
6. kissed a girl
7. used a little paper bag for lunch
8. had a job
9. slipped on ice
10. missed the school bus
11. left the house without my wallet/purse

12. bullied someone on the internet
13. sexted
14. had sex in public
15. played on a sports team
16. smoked weed
17. smoked cigarettes
18. smoked a cigar
19. drank alcohol
20. watched “The Breakfast Club”
21. been overweight
22 been underweight.
23. had an eating disorder
24. been to a wedding
25. made fun of someone for being fat
26. been on the computer for 5 hours straight
27. watched tv for 5 hours straight
28. been late for work
29. been late for school
30. kissed someone in the rain
31. showered with someone else
32. failed my drivers test
33. ran a mile in less than 10 minutes
34. been outside my home country
35. been on a road trip longer than 5 hours
36. gotten my heart broken
37. had a credit card
38. been to a professional sports game
49. broken a bone
40. been unhappy about my weight
41. won a trophy
42. cut myself
43. had an STD
44. got engaged oh the irony on this one
45. been on a diet
46. tried out to be on a tv show
47. rode in a taxi
48. been to prom (we don't have prom here)
49. played in a drinking game
50. stayed up for 24 hours or more
51. been to a concert
52. had a three-some
53. had a crush on someone of the same sex 

54. been in a car accident
55. had braces
56. learned another language
57. killed an animal/bug
58. been at a yard sale
59. been to a japanese steakhouse
60. wore make up
61. talked to someone via webcam
62. lost my virginity before I was 16
63. had my wisdom teeth taken out
64. kissed someone a different race than myself
65. snuck out of the house
66. bought porn
67. had a virus on my computer
68. had oral sex
69. dyed my hair
70. gone skinny dipping
71. graduated from college
72. wore someone else’s clothes
73. voted in a presidential election (only because we don't have that in Canada lol)
74. rode in an ambulance
75. rode in a helicopter
76. caught the stove on fire
77. got in a verbal fight
78. been on vacation
79. been on an airplane
80. been on a boat
81. had surgery.
82. kissed someone before I was 14. 

83. beat a video game
84. found something valuable on the ground
85. made a survey

86. stalked someone on facebook/myspace
87. prank called someone
88. been to a library outside of school
89. spent over $100 shopping in one day
90. cut my hair and hated it
91. peed outside
92. went fishing
93. helped with charity
94. taken a pregnancy test.
95. been rejected by a crush
96. been suspended from school
97. broken a mirror
98. faked sick from school
99. owned a pet
100. been to six flags

It's official, I'm a skank. Or moving in that direction anyway.
Lots of love and stuff.
~Nessa