Gaaah. Fucking period.... and lack of self control

Alrighty. Hello ladies :)

So. This is what is new in my life: I have my period... I did a proper grocery shop today
This is what is not new in my life: I am still fat, I binged the first day of my period.... because for whatever reason I always do....

More details:
I weighed myself this morning after a pee... and wearing a tube dress, and after i'd hd a baby bottle of orange juice and i was at 180. The fat gods have clearly turned their heads the other way for a little bit... I wonder how long this can last. I feel like I look like shit today..... Last night Billy came over and we got drunk and watched a couple of movies and played crib until 2am (ish)... then went to bed... inevitably he got all turned on when I started kissing him. I'm taking that as a good sign lol. Had sex in the shower so as to avoid the bleeding that may or may not occur when we have sex... and it did, just not during. It was all internal and afterwards. FUCK.Woke up and had my period. It's the super light baby period like I used to get when I was 14 and first having a period and ya know what that means. It'll be another 2 week-er. Fuck. I have a dr.s appointment on the 6th. I'm going to try to plead my case for going on depo-provera. The birth control shot. Then I'll only get my period every 3 months.

Now it's Saturday. 4 hours until Billy is done work and our camping adventure begins!~!! I'm not sure how the camping avec period will work..... Fuck lol. It's a little chilly out today (only 11degrees) and it looks like it's going to rain... but we're going! Ok. Now my body has decided I don't have my period??? Jeeeeeebus. Make up my mind. Yup, definitely asking for Depo at my dr.s appt. Alright. whatever. I'll just wear fucking pads all weekend.. ugh. I'd rather wear my cup the whole time. Oh well. Soooo we were trying to get Billy's dad to lend us his truck so we could bring fire wood and a boat/canoe to fish off of. Buuuuut now there's a new plan. His dad is coming out to the lake and bringing his boat... and then fishing with us... oh god. Dad's freak me out. FUCK. Like what if he thinks I'm dumb.... what if I scream when the fish gets reeled in! Then he's gonna think I'm just a ditzy blonde.

I'll update when I get home. It's promised to be a weekend of eating, and drinking. Frack. Good thing school starts next week, and I can go back to being busy all day. :)

Have a lovely weekend ladies. :D