So what's new? Well.. I'm a bad blog friend and I haven't commented on anyone's anything for a while... Sorry. :( I weighed 188 this morning.... which doesn't surprise me. I've been binging like a fucking fatty. I'm actually surprised it wasn't more... I feel ok about it... sort of... not really. I abused some laxies last night like they were dirty whores... the box said take 2-3 half hour before eating. So i did that. Then I took 5 more before I went to bed. I woke up at 4am and couldn't figure out why my stomach was cramping instead of my uterus. Then I remembered, and it all came tumbling out. :) Monday I'm counting calories again.... easing my way back down to my "safe" zone. I'm also going for a run on Monday morning... up at 6. I'm going to restart at week 6 of the couch to 5k program because that's the last week I completed. Run at 6. home at 6:30. Hop in the shower, half a grapefruit for breakfast. From now on it's some kind of salad wrap for lunch (just 1) but this plan will have to wait until Friday because I'm soooooooooooooooooo fucking broke. I have $30 to last until payday and I need to get milk for cereal, because my plan involves eating small snacks through the day. 2nd half of grapefruit for morning recess. One 100 calorie or less snack at lunch and another for afternoon recess. 1 MEASURED bowl of cereal for supper.... No other foods unless Billy comes for dinner. Then I'll have a small serving of whatever that is.
So camping was awesome. The northern lights were out and there were millions of stars! So absolutely beautiful. Too bad I had my period. That shit is messy when you're camping in the bush and squatting in the trees to do your business. (not that business.. I can't poop in the bush). Saturday night we listened to music from my car all night until like 4am :) Then snuggled up in my tent and went to sleep. Billy is such a snuggler. He holds me until sometime in his sleep when he inevitably rolls over. But even in his sleep when I run my fingers down his side or rub his back, or kiss his skin, he still gives a little "mm" of appreciation. and in the morning when he wakes up, he either rolls over and puts his arm around me or pulls me onto his chest. That's my favourite. It feels like I'm desirable. Well I know I'm desirable to him. I can't even kiss him without him getting all hot and bothered.
This week has been (and continues to be) blowjob week. Billy definitely enjoys my skills in this area, apparently he'd never had anyone deep throat him before. Poor boy, he's rather well endowed, and it's no easy task, but I bear my burden like a good girlfriend ;) But he does miss the rest of my anatomy. THANK GOD. Greg ALWAYS wanted me to finish him up with a blow job no matter how much pleasure I was deriving from the seldom had sex. In fact, more often than not, he's just ask for or expect a bj. Sure it's cheaper (no condoms) but his spunk tasted yucky and he fucking looked at so much porn and jerked off so often it took forever for him to finish that way (selfish bastard). When he would ask me what I wanted and I'd ask him to cum inside me, he always made me feel guilty about it. Really I didn't care where he finished up, it's just that the only good thrusting I got from him was the moments before he was done. Not so with Billy. Oh god. It's mind blowing every time all the time. And the fact that he'd rather be fucking me, well that just makes me feel peachy. :D
We spend a ridiculous amount of time together. He came over to watch a movie on Thursday night (I had to teach the next morning) and he grabbed some clothes on the way out of his room and sheepishly said "in case i don't feel like coming home" I told him he can stay over whenever he wants to.. He had previously left a pair of pants and a t-shirt at my place so he didn't have to take dirty clothes to work, which i washed like a good girlfriend. So now he has a pair of pants and a couple of t-shirts here. haha. and ya know what he left at my house? A tooth brush. A brand new tooth brush. :) Oooo we be so serious lol. I didn't really notice it until today, well i noticed but didn't think about it. I took a picture to document it because I'm lame like that. :D Look look loook!!!! I'm such a dork haha.
Mine is the purple and his is the green. Sorry my soap looks so disgusting, it's handmade and full of cinnamon. It smells yummy :)
Anywho. He's done work in a few hours and I haven't done any planning for this week.... so I'd better get rolling!!
Love you all. XOXO
Nessa
Awe I love when Mark pulls me in all tight to his chest in the morning, like he never wants me to go.
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