Post separation calm

Thursday already???!?!! How did that happen? And now it's Friday???

Didn't weigh myself this morning, but yesterday I was 213.8. I'm pretty sure I've taken to skipping the 213's completely so maybe this will finally be a downward trend. Urg. I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooo tired of being fat. :(

Went for a 5.85km walk yesterday evening. :D Burned 410 calories doing so. Restarted the squat challenge this morning Hooray. I feel like my thighs are continuing to shrink slowly. They didn't make me want to vomit as I was doing my squats this morning. I have a sexy dress that I want to wear to the Trout Festival Fundraiser on Friday evening. And an even sexier one that I want to look good in for my birthday. It's fairly skimpy.... so we'll see.

So here's how my week went. (so far, since it's only Thursday)

Monday, Mike was supposed to help me pick up a coffee table and 2 end tables with his truck after work. But the girl didn't reply to my texts or phone calls. .... so I told him he was off the hook. He texted me after that and he was all ....."soooo. do you wanna hang out?". Aw. I said that would be nice, your place or mine. He said mine. And after I didn't reply for like 5 minutes, he was like "so can I come over?". Hahah. I had to pick something else up to, so he took me to the next town over to pick up my Keurig. Mmmm. Coffee We sat on my couch for a little bit, all snuggly like, he kissed me on top of my head a bunch of times, and then we went to bed at like 9:00. Old people we are. :) After the usual activities (mmmmm. he's so yummy) we fell asleep all cuddled up, with our faces touching. Gosh. I like him. Like a lot. His arms and his back are all muscley and sexy, and he's so kissy, it's fantastic. Mmmmm. And he's so authoratative/commanding in bed. Like "take of your panties". Tehe. I love it. And he likes to spoon me (Billy hated spooning, he'd only do it for like 2 minutes, then roll over, and Clayton never spooned me either). Mike likes to spoon, and he kisses me on the back of the neck the whole time. Like if he falls asleep spooning me, if he wakes up, he kisses me right away. And I feel so sexy when we're *ahem* canoodling. I need a better word for that. He always kisses me everywhere. He kisses my tummy, and my legs and my arms.

Tuesday I worked, and did NOTHING after school. Literally. I lay on my couch and was lazy. I got a up at one point, to purchase a lamp. That is all.

Wednesday, work again. Went for my walk :D and discovered that my phone is retarded!!!! I put 2 Justin Timberlake albums onto my phone..... and they would play like 2 or 3 seconds of a song and then go to the next one. Extreeeeeeemely frustrating. Arg. By the time my phone synced the 4 playlists I was trying to sync onto it (it failed, didn't do it. they're not there, the program crashed. AHHH) it was 7:30. Went for my walk. Had some din din when I got home, and a rather large glass of Prosecco.

Thursday, I worked again. Whoo hoo, for my bank account. Boo for the giant pile of laundry in my closet. One of my professor's from Music School is up here to do some choral workshops, so I went to that from 8-9ish. Soooo exciting to see her again!!! But a lot of what she went over was stuff I'd learned in her class, which is good. Review is always great. There was some new stuff too. Oh. Dean messaged me in the morning over facebook, talking about how he was bored, and on days off. I asked him why he didn't go visit his girlfriend if he was bored? He said he "kicked her to the curb a month ago" because she "sucked at life" (he wouldn't give me any other details). He also asked me if I was single again yet...... ummmmmmmm. I said no. Unfortunately for you, someone else is eating my lasagna currently. Well that explains why he called me for a ride a couple weeks ago, and why he's been talking to me lately. I'm still pretty sure we could never date. He's a nice guy, and we get along really well..... but remember waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back in September when my family came to visit? and I went and slept over at Dean's? Oh wait, you don't, because I was avoiding this blog at the time.

Well, my family came to visit, and they were crazy, because they always are, but they didn't stay with me that time. There was a night when my family and I were playing cards, and I tried to convince Dean to come play with us. He declined the invitation (at this point, his licence was still revoked) but said I should come out there to have a good sleep and a cuddle. This was back when my heat wasn't working, so sleeping at home was miserable. I went out there and we had a "no touching sexy bits" rule. We cuddled, and slept and I drove back into town in the morning. It was that night that I discovered I'm not sexually attracted to him in any way. Also, he's really hairy, and his hair is pokey. Like even on his back. ew.

 I'll stick to my fury Mike-man-candy. Mmmmm. Mike. Writing all this stuff about him is making me feel very flushed, and hot and bothered.

Friday - Suddenly I weigh as much as a small truck?!?!?!?! Like up 3 pounds!!!!!!! WTF. Kill me. Like a lame horse. I'm useless. Also, slightly crampy, so that could have something to do with it. my jeans are making a bit of a muffin top, but my thighs don't look like they're bigger. So I'm going to guess it's my lady times and I'm bloated, which is hard to tell because I don't really get my period anymore.

Tonight there's a fundraiser dinner thing for the Trout Festival. I asked Mike on Tuesday if he wanted to come, he said probably. Sooooo hopefully he comes with me tonight. We haven't really been out together, other than going out to eat, since the summer, and there was that night right before he broke up with me after Christmas that we were both out, but I wasn't included in his plans, and I only saw him in passing as he left the bar I'd just gotten to, to go to the one I'd just left (that was a shitty night). I'm going to dress all sexy like, heels and everything ;) Also.... got my sexy nightie in the mail yesterday. I'm going to pack it in my purse, in case I end up at Mike's tonight. Though usually if there's a chance of shennanegans/canoodling we go to my place, out of respect to his room mate. Fingers crossed that he still wants to come with me. If not... I'm gonna lay on the guilt. . . . . or just lay on him. *sigh* one track mind. Arg. His cousin is in the class I'm typing this during. Weird.

I've been eating shitty all week. I'm going to give myself the weekend to continue doing so. Then it's back to calorie counting.

alright. Have a good weekend ladies.

Love y'all
XOXO Nessa