Pain. So much pain.

Omg. Sooooo much pain! I thought I was ahead of schedule and on the mend! I was wrong. Can't even open my mouth this morning, water hurts and my neck and tongue are swollen up again. Even worse i feel too weak to get up and get what i need. Roomie is with her bf and Tim has a wife so I don't want to call him i just don't want to impose on anyone. I'd call Clayton but he texted me late while I was sleeping so he's probably down for the count. To his credit he called wednesday to see how i was and came over thursday and friday. Which was nice because i was so afraid to sleep alone. But now i need water and someone to blend some ice into chips for me and make more jell-o. I didn't think i'd need anymore since i ate noodles yesterday. Oi vey this is awful. I wish they'd just taken them out when i was 10 like they said they were going to. Soooo tired.

Weight wise. I was 215.6 this morning. But i also haven't pooped for 6 days now. The moment i'm feeling better i'm going to have a laxie day.

Ugh my apartment is a disaster. My fucking room mate doesn't even stay here but she has loads of expired food in the fridge. I had to throw shit out to make room for my jell-o. And the garbage has been overflowing since Monday. I wasn't even in town that weekend. Her contact solution leaves a sticky mess on the bathroom counter every day. It just adds up and she never wipes it. Even when the dust settles on it and makes an icky greenish residue. (the dust from the mine is from rocks and minerals. So it's coloured). I'm too fucking sick to clean up after her. She had the audacity to text m on wednesday on my way home from p.a. (the town 4 hours away where my surgery was) to say "don't worry about the dishes when you get home. I'll do them later". I replied "i'm not doing shit for a few days". I literally can't. She is the worst self proclaimed "best friend" ever. She's too busy cleaning her boyfriends house to make him love her and find her irreplaceable to clean up after herself here. Fuck. Sorry i'm so grumpy. I'm going back to sleep.

Frumpy hugs and sloppy kisses.

Xoxo from a grumpy nessa