Revisitng previous progress (picture heavy)

Tuesday 212.4

B - Coffee
L - 1/2 salmon fillet. steamed veggies. teaspoon of peanut butter.
After school - sugar free, skim coconut latte
S - couple spoons of cottage cheese, 2 eggs with salsa, 2 tsp peanut butter
Before "The Importance of Being Ernest" rehearsal - 1 real fruit popsicle

My waist is 1 inch from being my regular "size 14" size (i measured at night. not optimal i know). I put on teacher pants this morning that I haven't worn since November. Little bit of muffin top, but I hid it well with a black tank top and a strategically cut cardigan. Helped that the pants are black. I want to fit into my summer pants from last year by the end of February, or middle of March at the latest. I don't even want to be ridiculously thin, just happy with myself. I was sooooooo happy with where I was at when i moved here (see picture below). I weighed 170 at that point. Not bad eh? I carry a lot of lean muscle mass (Everytime I get any kind of body testing done, it's re-affirmed. And trainers and doctors alike are always surprised. Yeah. I'm fat and I have muscle... deal with it.) Anyway. I'd like to get maybe 10-20 pounds below that as a final goal. 150? At that point I'm a size 8 if I recall correctly. I'm ok with that.

Ok. First 2 pictures are from close to my heaviest weight (256)

Next 2 are of my lowest weight (since high school... Oh other than when I first got to Uni and lost like 40 pounds hahahaah. That was fun. But there aren't any pictures of that :( ) Anyway. This is me 2 summers ago at 174. I went from 256-174 between March and July.

Don't mind the pale. I hadn't discovered the beach yet.

 

My main point here is that if I could do that in 5 months, I should logically be able to get from 212 down to 170 EASILY by  the beginning of May. I'm not going at the eating thing the same way. I haven't calculated any calories and I'm definitely not running on the 500-800 I was at that point. 40pounds in 3 months? I can do this..... or at least be down to that size again. The number on the scale isn't so much the goal for me. Anyway. If I start there in spring, by mid-summer I should be looking ba-damn fine. This time around I will know how to do my hair and wear make-up, and get to the beach!


Alright, enough pictures. Of course there are other aspects of my life. Like shitty choices I make (aka Clayton) I texted him last night, asking him where he went? Like WTF happened. No text "after dinner" or at all for that matter. He said he was busy with work stuff...... After a short conversation, I said I had to go to bed, and that he shouldn't be such a retard, and he needs to friggin text me... like in the next few days.

Got home from rehearsal, and who should magically initiate conversation? Clayton. Buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut; My brain is too full of shit to be emotionally invested right now. I have play rehearsals, musical rehearsals, horn lessons to give, Trout Festival (our small town festival) meetings to attend, and running to do. My brain is consumed with what is going into my mouth, and what I'm doing otherwise. He says got the job he applied for in the town 2 hours away (instead of 10 hours like before). He'll be gone for a month probably. These are just factoids. Like I said, too busy in my brain to deal with it.

I just weighed myself (which I try not to do at night because it always makes me upset... but 212.9. I'll take it! That means I should be at 211.? tomorrow morning. My goal was to make it down to 210 by the end of January (I set this like a week ago). Hurray for continued success.

Tomorrow I will run again. Thursday I start the Fab Ab Friday routine. Mornings. I'm going to try my hardest to make this happen. Anybody wanna join me?

 Frig I'm freezing. My apartment is like a refrigerator. Sooooo glad I got an electric blanket. Best purchase of my life. Anywho, my eyes are so tired. I have to sleep now.

Love you lovely ladies. :) If there is anyone following me, and I'm not following you back, lemme know, so I can rectify the situation.

XOXO Nessa