longest post EVAR.

Firstly. This post is going to be sooooooooooooooooooooooo long. I've been typing into it for 2 days now. Sorry y'all.


Comments on comments on my last post:
Camille: I am NOT tall by any measure lol. I'm 5'5" but your comment was sweet. :) I like to think that I carry weight well. I was sucking in in that picture, but it doesn't make a huge difference in head on photos (for me)



Rio: :D I seriously feel like you are my home girl.

Miss Muffit:  I especially heart you :) I have lost 75 pounds so far!!! Hard to believe. I don't even look like the same person. I can't wait to be petit and sexy all the timehahahahahahah. Boys won't know what hit em' ;)

Cinnamon Brown: Don't feel bad. Now you're here and you're stuck forever in my vortex of abandoned commitments and plans not followed through on. haha. 

Child of Apathy: Glad I could inspire someone lol.

Mich: I love nerds! Piercings have a whole different set of anxieties that come with them. It was a little nerve wracking sitting on the bench... I felt a little flutter of nerves. But it was over so quickly.. plus now I feel super tough!! I'm so badass. lol

 Ok -----Remember this from my goals/rewards page?:

185 --- PARTY IN MY FRICKIN PANTS. This is how much I weighed in grade 11, and a year after my Mom died. This is the number that I promised myself I would never go beyond... and then I spiraled into a dark depression and the next time I saw my weight I was 242. Very scary 

Well, I've passed that milestone!!!! Fuckity fuck yeah! It only took like 3 months from the previous hahahah. Only 4 pounds to go before muscles sexy visit!! Oh baby. I am sooooo pumped to get some good non-committal sex. This will be a first for me... I've only ever slept with Greg and before him Gerard. He's such a cutie pie sexy piece of man meat! Plus he's a little sweet too, but not too sweet. Not like I'm going to fall in love with him. His last message was a goodnight message and it said "Love those hips and your smile. Night sexy vanessa". Yes. My body is bending to my will. When I kneel there is a small gap between my upper thighs.... hahahahahaha. Ya know what that means? POTENTIAL for the real deal. I'm so tired of my thighs touching lol.

I am feeling invincible. Today is Couch to 5k week one day 3 and IT WILL HAPPEN... even if it's 24 degrees out. I MUST RUN. Because there's a social tonight and I plan on drinking copious amounts of alcohol. I am also intending to walk most places today. I need to walk down to main street (1.6km) to see Kevin sing on the stage there (Kevin is a friend I met through roomie, he was an EA (educational assistant) in my AM Kindergarten class), then I have to from there to my school to let someone in to grab the electric keyboard (4.0km). I'm going to get my couch to 5k in on that leg :) The actual running part will probably only last about 2 km (that's what I've been getting done this week), so the remaining 2 km will be walking (the running part went for 3k!). :D. Then the 3.2km walk back to Kat's place. I might drive to Wal-mart to get pair of shorts aiag#@%JAGLHAGwt925. Fucking fat legs, it's gonna look awful but it's too god damn fucking hot here not to wear them. Later this eve there's an open mic even on main street (another 1.6km) then a house party/pregaming before the social. Then of course the social! I am going to dance my pants off!!! Hopefully literally. I'm not going to bother plugging it all in my "activ trainer" thingy-majigger where I log all of my couch to 5k stuff. ... although now I'm kind of curious as to how many calories I will be burn. The run/walk will surely offset the calories I am about to drink tonight. Although the limited calories thing pretty much ensures I'm drunk after 3-4 drinks. :D Yesterday I had a beer with dinner and I almost felt like I shouldn't have been driving. I wouldn't have blown over, but  still I was tipsy.

Alright, piercing news. I settled on an industrial:

 

Pardon the swelling and redness. This is literally 3-4 hours after it was done.

Much later in the day

Ooo. Exciting development.  So this guy that I dated in high school is in a band, we shall dub him sax guy. And I always have these fucking sex dreams about him.... I know I've mentioned them on here. Well guess whose band is playing tonight at the fish fry? Of course his! And who sent me their cell number on facebook? Of course he did. And who has been innocently texting me? Of course he has. Nothing funny, just friendly hello's and where is the venue lol. When I told him I had to go shower he said "cute". Meh. Maybe it will happen, maybe it wont..

THE MORNING AFTER 180.5!! After eating breakfast and drinking a large amount of water: (very wordy story here.. this might bore you.... also very sexually explicit. Soooo if that bothers you, just stop reading now)

Well that was fun!  I showed up at the social and highschool-college-boyfriend aka sax guy (when we dated he was in college and i was in high school) was playing on stage with his band . i should mention that I also dated the drummer in high school. Kinda weird that they ended up in a band together like 6 years later... and neither of them knew i dated the other until last night haha. So I get there and sax guy gives me a hug and tells me I look awesome, just the same as in high school. :D Seee I really am at my high school weight. Then drummer guy sees me and is all "wow, you look awesome". So the whole band basically tries to chat me up whenever sax guy has to go get something. hahaha. Cute. Anywho. So we sit and drink some beer, and we flirt. We sit reeeeally close to each other. He holds my hand as we navigate the dance floor filled with drunks. They decide to pack up and go back to the hotel, me being the AWESOME COOL CHICK i am, i help with the loading up. Then of course sax guy asks if I'm coming with. Of course I am!! The very back of the van is filled with pillows, because apparently they always forget pillows on tour, and everyone brought 5 lol. So I ride in the back with sax guy. I'm preeeeetty tipsy at this point, but that did not stop sax guy from buying a case of beer when we got back to the hotel. We watch half of some documentary about a punk band, and drink beer, the whole band and i. Then suddenly everyone is going to bed. :) And oh boy do I get really great snuggles! i feel so small with his hands roaming my body. in the morning when we're both sober, that's when the fun begins. ;) massages and strategic snuggling of the sexy variety, petting, kissing. Mmmmm.  Sax guy chuckles at the irony that 8 or 9 years later, we're in this situation that never arose when we did date. I ask him if he usually brings strange girls home after a show? He replies I'm not a stranger, and no. After our showers, and while his roomie is showering, we make out, he fingers me. (memories of high school... i'm pretty sure he was the first person to finger me, but that only happened once or twice) I am all over that like some animal moaning and devouring his kisses. I can't get enough, but roomie is a quick shower-er. "This is just a taste" he says (sax guy) I'm left all slippery and flushed. Breakfast? of course i'll have breakfast! I'm not sure what the protocol is, did I just outstay my welcome? Naw, sax guy and his roomie and i have pleasant conversation over breakfast, they charge it to the room. I depart after that saying it was really nice to catch up! He texts me when they leave suggesting I should drop him a line the next time I'm in Winnipeg. Which I shall do.... He was packing some SERIOUS heat. Like whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooa! Like, how did I not know this in high school? Oooo that's right, I had this mad case of phallophobia in high school.  Now I'm all in a daze. Best mood of my life! Great sleep, great sexy time, great (and free) breakfast.
 
K, just so we're clear these are the peeps I'm talking about (they did NOT look like this in high school lol):

Drummer guy

Sax guy

You may recognize them from a budweiser commercial during the superbowl? Lol. They're half famous.

Soooooooooooo... that was my weekend! Haha not too shabby if I do say so myself!
Sorry the post was so long, I hope I didn't bore anyone.

XOXO Nessa

3 more pounds before I see muscles. :)