Aqua - ouch lol

Monday - 210.0 YES~!
Tuesday - 209.6 Hurrah!

Alright OMG. My voice is so different post tonsillectomy! I was watching older vlogs, and wow.

SO. My weekend was FULL OF DRAMA. Instead of typing it out, I vlogged. Sorry it's long. It's full of Clayton/Mike drama. I promise.

And wouldn't cha know it. Mike just had a decent conversation with me via text. And at the end of it all asked me what I was up to tonight. I said aquafit from 8-9. He said you should come over here after if you want to. I will go. And see what the scoop is. I'm not going to bring anything up yet, because I haven't figured out how to do it without terrifying him, like I said. But erg.

Previous advice from blogging about Mike still stands, don't do things in hopes of just running into him. He can work for this.

So I went to his place after Aqua fit, and I walked in, and they were all playing magic cards lol. Cuuuuuute. :D I love nerds. Also, Dewy tried to call me while i was there, I texted him "sorry I'm at a friends". He said "that's ok, I was wondering if you'd like to watch a movie with me Wed or Thur" dur. I say I can't because I have rehearsals all this week. He asks if I have plans on Saturday. I say my friend is having an "anti-valentine's day" party. He says, ok, well have fun then. I am going to type out  message to him today at some point. Anyway. They were playing magic - the gathering. Mike tried to get me to play. I was like NO WAY, I suck too bad. When they were done (Mike won, yay!) he was like I gotta go to bed, I have work in the morning and excused himself. I was like, I suppose that's my cue to travel back to my abode. He was like yeah, I have to sleep tonight. (it was way past his bedtime lol). I bugged him for inviting me over when they were playing magic, he said he didn't know until i was already at aquafit. he said, really, would you rather not have come over? I say no, and he kisses me at the door. He texted me after I got home. It said "Weak. my bed doesn't even smell like girl". Awwww. Wow. So being busy and not really putting any effort into this works?

I asked my friend Shawn what i should do, like if i should bring it up or say anything to him, like requesting clarification. He was like "do you like where it is right now?" he was also the one that was like,ooooooh this is totally turning into something more than bang buddies, you know that right? I was like, I'm pretending it's not so my heart doesn't break again over the same god damn boy. (I do this to myself, I know)

Anywho, going for my run right away, I feel dead tired. UGH. then I have a rehearsal for Ernest. Still haven't messaged Dewy, maybe I'll do it via Facebook. I'm good for that.... lawl. What do I even say? That I didn't feel romantically attracted to him? That I'm involved with someone else? That I don't want to be in the middle of a divorcing couple? That I feel like a child around him because he's 7 years older than me? I dunno. I'll figure it out I guess lol