thurs, fri, sat, sun aaaaaaaaaaaaall in one! (sorry this might be long)

Thursday - 213.6?!?!?! Why does this keep happening? FUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.
 food - I can't remember what I ate because I didn't write it down. But I had 2 lemon gin and waters at the end of the night.

Friday 212. Ok. The secret to weight loss is booze? Whatever. My waist is down half an inch, and I swear my arse feels more firm already. I know I'm building muscles and it's the shrinking that counts.... but it would still be nice to see that number continually decline.
B - Honeydew melon and some cottage cheese. Tea with honey. I even tweeted about it!
L - Chicken Caesar salad (3/4 of it) and 1 piece of garlic toast, tea with honey
S - Open faced tuna melt (1 slice of bread) and 8 asparagus spears
Snack at 7:15 - 1 serving of date (or maybe it's fig?) Greek yoghurt. Into which I inserted some peanut butter. 
Mmmmmm the love I have for peanut butter is ridiculous. I need to switch back to the natural peanut butter.... but the other stuff is just so damn tastey!

Also had a glass of wine in the evening.Followed by way too much food.... Not quite a binge, but definitely a late meal.

Saturday - no idea what I weigh. I'll weigh in again tomorrow (didn't happen). Hoping to fast through the majority of Sunday. (also didn't happen)

Still on the breakfast train. It consumes me every morning. I think, "what am I going to feed myself this morning?" Definitely made me think at the grocery store last night. Also, my dad's gf ordered some diet pills but then was worried they'd react badly with her regular medication, so he gave them to my sister, but she does hot yoga and is cutting back on putting shit (like hard drugs lol) into her body, so she gave them to me. I took them yesterday morning and again this morning.

February workout schedule is going well. I missed my ab workout on Friday because I'm lazy like that sometimes :( I could have made it up by not having the rest day today, but eff that. I was too hungover for that shit.
 
Thursday night I went to the hooter  and met up with Kat and her boyfriend, and their friend Bryce. Kat and Jarrod spent the whole time bickering.... Bryce is shy so he didn't talk a lot. We all left early, as soon as the draw for "Chase the Ace" was done (@11pm). Chase the ace is this promotion where every drink you buy, you get a ticket. At the end of the night they draw 1 ticket. That person gets to pull a card from the deck. Your goal is to get the Ace of Spades. The pot is up to like $2500 now. So the boys were buying our drinks. I only had 2, gotta be able to get myself home.

Friday morning I got my hair coloured, and had my interview at the clinic. The boss lady was SUPER impressed with me. I interview really Itwell. I just have to get a criminal background check and my references checked, and then I can start training.It was my hair dresser's Mom's birthday. She was there getting a mani/pedi and a facial. And my hair dresser just kept going on about how great her mom was. I wanted to say something about my Mom being dead... but I didn't want to ruin her day. But it certainly ruined mine. I went for a run in the afternoon.... and I fucking broke down crying the moment i was done running. then i went for a cruise in my car (second of the day) and cried some more. Some days are just hard. Oh. and Donna (Billy's Mom) is going backpacking through Asia with her niece for 4 or 5 months. So I have no mother figure here anymore. :( I know I need to get over it and be ok on my own, but it's friggin hard. Texted Clayton saying i was having a really rough day and wanted to talk to him. No reply. Still no reply and it's Sunday

Friday evening I did nothing. Had wine... and a ridiculous amount of after hours food. While I was laying in my food coma in bed, I got a text from Mike "What's up?" - NM you?  - "Just playing pool with Matt." - Oh sounds fun - "I was wondering if you'd like some company?". .... I'm thinking, Oh god. I have a food baby, and my apartment is all cluttery. But I know he doesn't care, since he didn't care when we were seeing each other. So I say ok. He comes over. .... and the usual shenanegans transpire. He's so nice about it. Talking about our weeks. He pulls out his iphone saying "I saw this article and it made me think of you". That's a little "boyfriend-y" but whatever, this is not a relationship. This is Friends With Benefits. The sex was a little better when I gave a shit about whether he could finish or not... Like when I'm tired or need a break now, I just roll over lol. Anyway. I drove him home this morning since I had my car at home this time. Kat texts me to see if I'll give her a ride to choir. I tell her I have to run an errand but then I'll be there. She asks me where i went. I told her honestly. She tells me..... wait for it..... "Honestly, I think I approve less of this situation than the whole Clayton thing". I was like REALLY???? With Mike there aren't any promises that won't be fulfilled. It just is what it is. And I'm a freaking nympho, so it's fulfilling my needs, and the cuddles afterwards are a bonus. She says "I don't like that he's getting exactly what he wants. What he wanted all along". I remind her that if he had just told me from the start that a Friends with Benefits situation was what he was going for, I would have been ok with it. She says "yeah. but he made it seem like he wanted  a relationship". Well.... he probably thought he did, or at least wanted to try. Frankly, I don't care. I get lonely, this is a safe way out. Obviously if I met someone, this would stop. Mike is clean, and isn't sleeping with anyone else so why not??

Saturday. Choir in the morning, brunch with the gang. Then I tinkered around the house. Took a nap. Texted with Jason a little bit. Then I went to my friend Kelly's place to play some drinking games. Woop woop. Went to the bar. Immediately got a free drink from a guy I've never met. Jason was there a bit later. He was a total chach though. I felt obligated to try to socialize with him because he's Kelly's fiance's best friend and she thought it would be really great of us to get to know each other. I asked him to dance, and he turned me down. I think he was trying to be flirty, but I was like, "ok, whatever. your loss" and this other guy from our table was like "I'll dance with you". He seemed like a sweety pie, and very attractive. We will call him Dewy because that's his nickname. But like everyone else in Flin Flon, opinions on him vary. Ripper says "he's the nicest guy. I would trust him with my kids" and that's huge for him. Kelly says "he's going through a divorce and is an ass" but she's also really good friends with his ex. I didn't remember what Kelly had said, so I just went with it. A bunch of people went back to Kelly's after the bar. Dewy came with. He didn't stay long, but he took me into the kitchen when he did leave, I gave him my number, and he kissed me good night. I don't think he'll call, since ya know, the whole divorce thing. Also.... he has kids. Eep. I'll just stick with my friends with benefits situation. Speaking of, Mike started texting me shortly after that. Jason also tried to text me (while sitting in the same room as me, nice try). Mike was like, "sports extravaganza night sucked, you should come here for some cuddles.... or we can go to your place for the loud stuff". Bahahah. I say "call me a cab, i'll come to you. i'm down for some cuddles". So he calls me a cab, but the cab company says it's a 40 minute wait, so he comes to get me instead. And takes me to my place. Apparently his house mate was not down with me being there. I can't say I blame him, I'm loud, and let's face it, the chance of us just cuddling are slim to none. I was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to drunk to be of very much use though lol. Like have the spins, and couldn't stay sitting up, and was babbling like an idiot. He was like, HOOOOOLY you are drunk. Not my fault lol. I haven't gone drinking for like 3 weeks, and people kept buying me drinks. So we mostly just slept. In the morning when I woke up to some good old fashioned bum pinching, I was still tipsy.... yikes. He ragged on me hard this morning, making fun of me for being sooooo drunk lol. And then he was annoying, like a jr high boy when they have a crush. I think he was trying to be cutsey (why? I don't know, since there's really no need for that), but he'd like take the blankets off of me, or knock my phone out of my hand, and pushed me over when I was putting on my socks since my balance was still off. He also threatened to fart on me, and I told him I would fart back since he's not my bf and I don't have to care about it. He drove me to my car in the morning. Thank god. It was minus 30 again this morning. This is a great arrangement. I'm not going to get attached, because I've already been there, done that. And my needs are fulfilled. Hollee thinks i should ask him to be our 4th for Vegas. If we're still at this in a month I might bring it up. Hotels are cheaper with 4 people instead of 3. But we'll see. I'm betting he won't want to, since he's got a lot of bills, and my Vegas experience is still hinging on my tax return.

I ate too much food tonight. I think if i still got my period (thank you Depo shot) it would be happening now. My uterus hurts, and I want junk food. But I refuse to buy junk food. so there. but seriously.... oi vey uterus. Calm the fuck down!!!

Anywho, I'm finally sleepy, so i will bid you good night. Hope everyone else had a great weekend!