Up again.

Monday - 212.5 So I gained back the last 2 pounds. In one week. Great. Fuck my life. Erg.

Food:
B - 2 hard boiled eggs and 2 pieces of toast with pb
L - Cottage cheese, snap peas and an apple
Snack at coffee break - rest of my peas and a yogurt
D - 2 rice cakes (which I made into a pb and jam sandwich.... Cutting that shit out too) 1 piece of salmon (small) and steamed carrots and green beans.

Not going to run tonight. My stomach still hurts!? wtf? Not as severely as yesterday, but still little dull throbs for a minute or two at a time every once in a while... I'm so confused by this. Maybe it's stress. Things with Mike have significantly cooled off. He's gotten over texting me every day, I've had to initiate conversations the last 3 days and he hasn't been as eager to spend the night together either. :( Boo. Oh well. Arg. Fuck lol. We're still hanging out, he's just not so eagerly hunting me down lol. I think I gave in and texted first once, and that was it lol. We hung out a little bit after dinner and before my DnD game. He kissed me at the door. I dunno. I'm just going to not text him at all today... Well I did this morning, because I sent him a moderately dirty picture last night and I texted to ask if he got it (my phone said it was "pending"). He did though. But I haven't talked to him since. I doubt he'll text me tonight. He has pool. Whatever, I'm going to watch Walking Dead with Tim and Hollee :) That should cheer me up. Men have such a hold over my mood :( Not my self esteem or my self worth, but I'm definitely in a better mood when I'm being chased around. I'll ask him if he wants to hang out tomorrow. Worst case scenario I don't see him until Friday at trivia night. That would suck. Grr.

I must sound like a real negative nelly on here I just realized. I'm not really a negative person in real life, but in real life I also don't talk about how much I weigh and what I did or did not eat lol. Not much else to say at the moment. Sooooo I guess that's it. I'll weigh again tomorrow morning. See what happens there :( Maybe it's the scale that has the most control over my mood. Hmmmm. Things to ponder. Gah, I wish I was getting laid/cuddled tonight. :(